Friends...lack of

Today is the issue of friends more specifically the lack thereof. My social life is nonexistent  but I don’t really mind. I admit that I’m not the most sociable individual and I don’t put much effort into maintaining contact with others. Nevertheless, it takes two persons to communicate, interpersonally, that is. So I should not be labelled as the only person at fault for the deterioration of friendships.

Since I’ve been at high, I have ‘lost’ five potentially lifelong friends to migration. Lost is written as it is because they are very much alive and I hope they are well but the relationship has been strained due to lack of communication. Either the world was against me or somehow I was just unlucky to befriend and grow attached to persons who had no intent on staying in the country.

Recently, two friends whom I’d deemed ‘best friends’, migrated to further their education abroad. Ok , I understand that you want to enhance your intelligence (does that make sense?) take hold of opportunities unavailable here in Jamdown but while you’re gone but at least show some appreciation for the people who encouraged and shared memorable/ intimate moments with you thus far. Well, I’d devised a communicating strategy that we would send weekly emails.

Unfortunately, I wasn’t entirely committed to it because I advanced to a more advanced level of academics at high school and it was quite difficult to adjust to the intense workload than what I was accustomed to. Anyhoo, I resumed communication but the others were not as faithful as I assumed they would be. However, their delayed response could be attributed to school work as well, getting accustomed to a different environment, different people and a different school. Therefore possibly they were genuinely preoccupied. But I have yet to receive response from emails I sent over 10 weeks ago. Keyword: ‘over’.

On the other hand, I have acquaintances at school. I talk to them but nothing more than that. There no instant messaging beyond school hours , there’s no get-together on weekdays and nothing. Nothing at all. It’s not that I have no interest in making friends but I think it is the very environment that I’m currently in. I don’t if it is limiting me or I’m just limiting myself by using the environment I’ve been immersed for almost 6 years as an excuse. I think I’ve exhausted my stay at the school (I haven’t but..oh wells) where friendships are concerned. I yearn to be in a different environment where there are varieties and varieties of people whom I haven’t met yet so I can start all over and that’s what I hope to do. I’ll leave highschool next year, hopefully! So…I’ll see where my social life goes from there.

Additionally, right before a friend gets carted off to the land of opportunites I never forget to say “Don’t you forget me”  to which she replies “How can I forget you? I’ll never forget you.” Well, that was total bull. It’s always bull.